Back to blog again. I don't know what keeps happening to me. Why can't I just keep on going with one thing? Why is it that I start something and then all of a sudden stop and think about something else? This is a real brain teaser for me. I know that this is my weakness. I am not able to work on this even though I know about my weakness. I sometimes feel that I am capable of producing miracles in the world but am not very sincere about myself. Although I have kept my life's motto as GO FOR IT, but I do not seem to work as per the motto. I start very nicely and then in the middle, I feel, I lose my way. Got to work on my temperament and also on my concentration. Or may be I think I should just keep going without thinking anything about the task in hand.

April 8th 2012 - I had a word with Abhijaan choudhury. He had worked with me for a short while in FIS. Somehow he fascinated me with his actions and words. He had written something on Facebook this morning. He had written and I quote "Religion is like a Black & White TV, Atheism is like a Rainbow. For those of you who believe in god, I don't have to explain, your minds are probably already programmed to believe in stupid shit, Easily." To this I asked him a simple question "I would like to ask you one simple question. Is there anything or anyone whom or which you believe or have faith in?". He replied and I quote "Sure bro, lots of things, Humanity, Reason, Logic, Rationality, Life, Death, Nature.. basically, all proven things, and things that can be proven!". I got hold of one point that he had made in his statement and said "So that my friend is God for you. God is not a person or a thing, it is the one in which you have faith. You believe in atheism, so atheism is your God. You believe in faith. So go for it and trust your faith and belief". He said "Ok, let me explain. For me, atheism is absence of any sort of faith or belief. god is not a person or a thing. you are right, god is nothing, god is 'no thing'.. atheism is not god, because god doesn't exist. atheism is the state of being free of any belief or faith. just believe what you see, experience and hear (in the case of music).. if your mind works, your thoughts are enough, no need for blind faith! :-)". For this I explained him that he has belief or faith in something. I said that he need not have blind faith in anything, even faith with rationality means that it is God for him. I said it is the faith that matters, and it does not matter in whom you have faith. You have faith in something or someone then make that something or someone as your God. Believe me even a faith as small as a mustard seed can make the mountains move from their paths. So have faith and GO FOR IT.